Why is it that when you travel a lot it becomes easier to sleep when you are away from home, than when you are at home?  I suppose that when I am at home I fret about so many things that don't even cross my mind when I am traveling.  Bills, laundry, junk drawers that need cleaning out, and now school! I have to admit I have been a little uptight at home.  There is so many things to do I actually freeze.  I think that things will be better when the remodel is complete and I can fall back into some sort of natural routine.  Maybe even start working out again!  (so I keep telling myself)

We picked up Drew's go-kart today.  It was so fun watching him drive it.  He is a natural!  Now I have to learn to drive a trailer for sure.  What would we do without youtube?  At some point maybe I'll start to haul our own horse. Save some money on the horse shows - of course that means buying a horse trailer. . . is that really saving money?  It also means taking twice as long to get to the shows.  AUGH.  I'll have to really think about that one!

The down side of staying up so late is the potential snacking opportunities. More time awake means more time to eat!  Why can't I be like my friends who simply quit drinking and then lose 10 lbs.  I guess that means that if I drank I would be 10 lbs (or more) heavier!  Note to self:  don't start drinking!

The other day I looked at Drew and he was suddenly a young man.  He actually has facial hair.  I don't know when that happened.  He is still so lanky, but more mature.  He's a mini-man.  Annika is a full grown woman.  She is so beautiful.  It doesn't seem that long ago that I was pushing her around the house in the laundry basket making racing noises.  I just keep thinking about that book, "Love you Forever," where the mother rocks her son (even when he is a grown man) and then, when she is too old and frail, he rocks her. Makes me cry every time I think about it.  It's going to be a blink of an eye before they are fully grown and on their own.

Christopher is still full of youth. . . we have a lot of years left there :)  If I had a clicker (like the movie) I would spend most of the time on "pause."  I feel like I am constantly screaming "wait" in my head.  Wait for me to catch up.  Wait for me to burn a mental image of this time in my head before you keep moving forward.  Let me drink this time in.  Then, at the same time I am running around "doing things."  I don't want to do meaningless things, I want to play with my kids!